In 1992 while working for IRS/Treasury, I meet my ex while looking for her ex who owed employment taxes. She was living in a apt in Palmdale Ca. While we talked I learned a lot about her and when I asked for some water she opened the refrigerator were there was a bottle of water and about 6 oranges. This is what they were surviving on. She was home schooling them as well, as she couldn't afford the gas to take them to school. I FELL IN LOVE AT THAT MOMENT. I asked her if I could take the youngest daughter Nicky B to get some ice cream and returned with about $300 in groceries. We started dating and she begin to tell me about her past. She had committed adultery while with her 1st husband with her soon to be second husband. Then committed adultery with her 1st husband while married to #2. She had an abortion while with #2 and I believe this occurred as she knew she couldn't cover the birth as to make him think it was his. She was beaten by #2, got a STD from #2, and was berated by #2 constantly. I told her prior to my asking her to marry me that I had been in a fight in high school which had left me virtually impotent and caused ED as well. Even knowing this I married her in early 1993 thinking I was the one who could show her love that she sought. We had a daughter in 1993 A MIRACLE to be sure. We moved to Washington State and were happy as we could be until.....she was invited to a family reunion in Palmdale CA. were she was roomed with her 1/2 bro whom she had exalted through the relationship as a very sexy man. I told her she wasn't going but, she went anyway. I filed for divorce upon her return as I knew what had occurred. The day the divorce was to be final she came to court and swore she had never dine anything and that she loved me unconditionally. I never returned to court to complete it. Some 4 or 5 yrs later we were in AZ. I had been fighting my heart which knew she had been unfaithful to me. While in a pool on a Sunday she received a call and when she returned she said we needed to talk. She told me her 1/2 brother had called wanting to know what time I left for work. She admitted that she had been with him in Palmdale. She said she was drunk and he raped her. I asked, "You fought to keep him from raping you?" "No", was the response. "you screamed and asked for help", "No" again. "You called the police?", "No', "you told your family?", "No" she said. I explained in my world that was consensual sex. We fought and in 1995 after again having sex with him I filed for divorce and completed it. In 1998 after my father passed away we talked and I had forgiven her for what happened we tried again. And again in 2/2010 she started again with him. When she moved out in late March 2010 she brought him to help her move to new apartment. I have agonized over what had I done wrong. Why didn't she just say I wasn't doing it for her? She has no self respect for herself or anyone. She is evil incarnated. Sex is all she seeks as it makes her feel attractive and wanted.